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playing drums. Can't remember much else. They were so fun to mess around with.


I think it was like the end of the second alien movie, except I could hear the queen try to talk to me. Also it was chained up but somehow got unlocked and started breaking the chains. I didn't have a flamethrower either. A tight spot as you would say. Thus I ran, but when I got to the elevator it would somehow move in compartments. it went to space, a space research stations. by the time we got there we were both starving and exhausted. We had become friends somewhat. They caged it up though, and I wandered the darkness. There were retro gaming cabinets there. I think my mother was there telling me not to mess up my sleep schedule. We started to argue about it


Something involving magic powers. Like the tonics in Bioshock. I think I was at first learning them in a school situation. Do you know willow?before learning the magic there was some weird math puzzle. I finished first but when I was going to read my answer to the class the first problem the teacher picked I had written the wrong data so I looked like an idiot.

Later on I was going up a long stone tower on a floating island made of mountains and a field of grass. There was a treasure chest on top. When I got to the top and tried to open it though it was concealed in iron bars and a wizard came out to attack me. Good thing I had learned some magic to defend myself. The spindly-legged possessed magic clam filled with skulls (like in willow right?) was attacking me, so I had to lure out the wizard and it out of the tower and into the grass field. who knows.


We were getting married on this beautiful sunny day on a grassy plateau overlooking the ocean, bunch of people it was gorgeous. I remembered I was missing the ring and said hey hold on I have to go get it dada dada. Went to this strange large parking structure and couldn't help but think there was fishy business afoot. got the ring and returned back but was greeted by looks of horror. I was wearing a white suit but looked down to find it just covered in blood. It was coming from me I was dying. What was a beautiful sunny day now was overcast and beginning to rain. A brightdream wedding was turning into a grey funeral procession along the beach. I don't want to die.

Something else involving pills and squatters, going to some weird club. Kind of up-scale and nice. Can't rightly remember.



WITHIN the Earth, a mountain:
The image of modesty.
Thus the superior man reduces that which is too much,
And augments that which is too little.
He weighs things and makes them equal

-I Ching

"This is the way the world ends

Not with a bang but an alarm clock."
-House of Leaves

well here it is

a place I can fall apart and get my thought out without people noticing. hurrah. well here I am. giant f up. don't care about making it through the day anymore. kind of just want to sleep. I don't want to eat, I don't want to get out of bed, don't want to see people. this is the worst I've ever been, but I made it this way. She'll be better off without me. Lacuna.

or wait there ya go

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Sep. 5th, 2010

This last night I had one of the most intense dreams that I did not want to wake up from. I keep having these fucking dreams. This shouldn't be happening, and I don't know what to do about it. It's been too many years.